One day at a time

Today, no planes flew into any buildings.

Today, there was no fire falling from the sky.

Today, there were no riots in the streets.

Today, the news was mostly just about famous people.

Today, no shaky footage was recorded of children running from a burning village.

Today, not one person stood in front of a tank.

Today, no one put flowers in the rifle barrels of guns.

Today, you will check your mail.

Today, no shots rang out over a black cavalcade.

Today, there was no negotiated revolution.

Today, no flags were burned.

Today, sport will be played and people will be upset over the outcome.

Tomorrow however, is a new day.

Peace with myself

This is a topic that I think 
about...frequently. Perhaps too frequently.

For the sake of discussion let's define this as being my quest to find inner peace and happiness with myself and let's add that I have had it, lost it, had it and lost it.

What I am talking about is the feeling of calm, of being whole, of being one with yourself in all areas of life. It is the feeling you have when you are happy with who you are, what you do, what you look like, feel like etc. It is being able to go to sleep feeling fulfilled.

I know what it is. I have been to that place. I have had moments in time in which I was happy with everything and all was right in the world and I have been in places where I felt as if I could not be any farther away from it.

Within the last couple of years I have been frustrated with a number of things. And the hardest part about some of this is that some of these things have truly been outside of my control
When I am not at peace with myself,  that kind of frustration frequently turns into white hot anger, some might even classify it as being rage.

And I admit to enjoying that anger, to responding to the rush of adrenaline. At times it is exhilirating. I am not in the place that allows me to rest and be fulfilled. There are many many blessings in my life and much to be thankful for, but there are still some pieces that are missing.

For now I am working on being content with what I have while trying to acquire the things that I need to bring the sense of quiet and security that I seek. Some days are good and some are bad, but the one thing that I can guarantee is that I will not give up. Some things are worth waiting and working for.

Rebirth

Where there were once tears of sorrow,
They are no more,
Body and soul, I seek potency within.

Shrouded in darkness, I now find the light,
I must be vigilant as there is always darkness that lingers.
I take a walk down the corridors of time,
Over look what has been, what is now, and what will come to pass,

I must not be afraid,
Where there is fear,
Comfort will come,
Patience is the key.

My body is broken,
Heart bleeds from pain,
My eyes see no more deceit to this world.
I cower no more

I close my eyes,
Release all sorrows inside,
I worry not for I know my heart shall heal in time.
I have self-confidence.

There is a light within,
Seek it beyond my darkness,
If found, I must walk to it,
For there lies a door beyond.

If I believe once more,
The door will open,
I wish to find redemption.
Forgiveness and help will come to me if only I ask.

Behind the door lies a pool,
If I trust than will I bathe in its waters.
I leave behind all misfortunes,
I shall be reborn.

Breathe again,
All is forgiven,
I appreciate this second chance.
Time is what I have.

Have faith,
I know I am loved,
I am free,
This is me,
This is the story of my rebirth.

~By Deaths Maiden~